/lostinlife

//all in english

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one day i wonder "If i have lived happily?" or "If i have spent my time for the ones who loves me and cares me?".

i hate running after some relationship (i called it 'toxic relationship'). i don't like this feeling but i have to save it. for work, for study, or for life.

and now, i feel extremely tired, i don't know if it is good or bad for me. i don't know where to go or what to do. and even can't cry or upset as if i am hopeless at this moment.

i am afraid of people

"Why did they do that?"

"Why did they hurt me by speech?"

"Why did they do that to me when i want to make friends with them?"

...

a lot of questions in my head and i can't answer any of them.

i want to have a peaceful life with my family, my friends and my lover

and it's difficult?

i don't know.